I recently made a business decision that took many weeks to process. It wasn’t a big decision. It was a relatively small and not-too-expensive decision, one that didn’t have huge ramifications in my life.
The results of the decision are small, gentle, and self-affirming. And that’s just as I want it to be.
But the decision itself continues to tremble within me.
Why is that?
Just when the decision came into my life, I was fresh from teaching a group of people Intuitive Decision-Making 101, sharing my own unique process of making powerful decisions with intuitive wisdom.
And here I was, a few weeks later, unable to hear my guidance, unwilling to trust the truth I knew in my body. So much for what living in integrity with I was teaching, said the self-critical voice within.
I wrestled this decision to the ground, not aware that “wrestling” was the exact opposite of the action I needed to take.
(Oh, but wrestling feels good.)
It’s funny how struggle creates the illusion of productivity.
The missing elements? Surrender. And play. And trust in my own body to tell me what to do.
Not to mention the wise counsel of my cats and dogs. I allowed my guidance to be offline, which was frustrating. But during this, when I couldn’t hear the whisper of my own soul, when all my channeling was as fuzzy as a ball of dryer lint, I had my dogs and cats.
Despite my intuitive challenges, their guidance to me was crisp and clear.
The question really is, why didn’t I listen sooner?
Because I was unwilling to make the choice that my heart knew was right for me.
Geesh.
I knew the answer all along. My body knew the answer. My guidance team knew the answer. My dogs and cats knew the answer. (And my husband knew the answer too.)
But I was attached to the outcome, and because of that, I experienced suffering.
When I surrendered the outcome, held in a space of quiet love for myself and by my husband, I knew exactly what to do.
I wasn’t happy about it at the time. But I am now. More than happy… I am satisfied.
What does this mean for you?
If you’re wrestling with a decision, unable to turn right or left in your business or world-changing enterprise, here’s a little game to play:
Imagine a scale of red to green. With one color being the attachment, and one color being the surrender. Hold this in your mind. Now ask yourself, where am I on this scale? Where am I resting? What is my hue?
Feel this one. Let your intuition point you to the right shade.
It’s just intuitive information, not world-ending data.
Write it down. Then go away. If you’re like most people I talk to, you have a cat or a dog. Take them for a walk. Or play a serious game of kill-the-feather-toy. Let it all go. Shh… it’s okay.
When you’re ready, glance at your intuitive information. You know, the stuff you wrote down? If you’re still wrestling, then see if you can let the battle go a little bit. Play this game again.
Each time you do this, you’re sneaking toward surrender, edging your way toward acceptance, and intuiting your path back to your own powerful intuition.
Your decision? Soon, its outcome may be less important than you think. Your job right now? To accept that which is right for you—which you already know within—and to move forward, regardless.